Jerry Shepard Attorney

It is definitely the waiting game as we "patiently" wait to see what the next chapter in our lives will bring.  Petition has been filed for my husband, Jerry, to have his law license reinstated.  For some reason after turning in his law license in 2006, it is being shown as him being disbarred.  This has created a number of problems for us as you can imagine.  Jerry Shepard, attorney disbarred, ugh!  If we would have only known, I think we may have chosen to just keep the license, but at the time, situations of my illness and expenses of keeping the license, we decided to turn it in.  I really hope that he is reinstated to bring our lives back to restoration and healing.  We need that around here. 

Tysabri Journey

Next month, November, will be my 12th infusion.  I have since found out that I am positive for the JC Virus. Some things are good to be positive; this is not one of those things.  Waiting for a new, awesome oral medication that should be released in November or December.  At that point I will make the change away from Tysabri to the new medication.  Of course, I am a little worried about this change (relapse, not as effective) but I guess it's better than a nice brain infection leaving me either dead or wishing I was dead.  Oh, the many choices we have in life.

Multiple Sclerosis

Frustrating, very frustrating.

Children

As I sit and witness the growing up of my children I am filled with an emptiness.  I can hear the echoes of their little voices and pitta-pattering of their tiny feet.  I am left searching for a way to fill that hole.  Intellectually, I know that this is just a different stage of all of our lives, but emotionally, I don't want to let go to their childhoods.  Heck, I am still a child and don't want to let go of that either.  I don't think I accept change very well.